Process and Prep
“As Art fair ends, I set an intent
devoting regular time
for creative process
first thing in the day,
Everyday.”
This past Weeknd was the Boneyard Art fest, a wonderful vibe across towns that celebrates all types of arts in several places.
So much to write about the inspiring Artists and Charged up events, certainly another post for Boneyard Fest is needed. For now, as April is almost ending and as CU Poetry group’s reading inspired me to touch a Pen, penned something to commemorate the month and look back on my creative process.
Some diary excerpts from -
17 April, '23 while pondering on my prep ritual before touching the paints (or a brush)
As the Art fair ends,
I set an intent
devoting regular time
for creative process
first thing in the day, everyday.
So I start.
But first I try to calm and bring my mind in the present
to follow what my mentor had said to do as a prep..
"Calm down, meditate, gather attention, be aware.."
so i try and retry
not more then 5 seconds
cud I focus on my breath
what a fail what a loser I said
to myself
Three times tried and drifted
but gave up not
Took a pause to shame myself
And tried again
All three episodes failed
To calm my mind
And bring it to a focal point
uniting the brush and brain
paper and hand
That will hold the brush
Or by it be held
... But all in vein
Excuse me for using this word
time and again
BUT, by now I have concluded that
Spontaneity is the best
So I flow with the flow
Of my thoughts along with my breath
And use that word again
From where I left
But in vein
I said about my efforts
For training my mind insane
But they say,
No efforts go waste
And I believe in it
For enough times that
I actually have it felt.
So the aim of focusing
Didnot yield sucess
But the efforts didnot go waste
For each few minute that I sat
i felt more and more relaxed
less agitated
less intimidated by to-do list's lenght
And for the last session
The quality of thoughts
Changed!
Instead of trying
And pushing
And forcing
I let go off the efforts
after the third attempt.
As time was limited
with a serene thought of
PURITY
and devotion and work balance,
I disconnected my pose
And took to the brush
Which I had previously held
three time in a row
and had laid back horizontly
On top of water cointainer’s edge
as i had not felt the flow.
Ofcorse there was no spontaneity
Like I have experienced before
But I was more present
More intentional
And let go off any thoughts of
Spontaneity or Purity
that was expected
of myself
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* took a pause for work and continued writing
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i have always believed
in my formative years
that the result is not more important
then the process itself
For the process actually carves the path
to reach the aims..
So i felt, a need for this to b documented
Our aims will not be met
in our expected periods
But nevertheless
Efforts don’t go waste
The quality will change
In whatever we do
When, before beginning,
A clean intention is set.
Don’t bother if u don’t have time
But definatly
Make some attempt
To slow down
And meditate
Whatever it means
To you or your intellect
For it will doubtlessly
Change the depth of
What happens next…
— 17 April ‘23
While pondering on previous writings of the day..
